What have I become?

[Gitta Rensolo]

mwha sounds so philosophical....

but now seriously....I'm feeling a change currently which I'm only half sure of whether I should like it or not...it's funny how much other people can influence you....so since I've been living in Bonn I've made some good friends here and they influence me,...in a positive and a negative way....positive in so far that they made me more self-confident and all that stuff, but negative that we are some lazy bums who love to party and to drink and who like to backbite about others who maybe look different or something...bah!Now I'm one of those who I have always been the victim of....mwha probably I just want to give back the things to the society they have done to me....no that's bullshit...


but oh well this thought came to my mind when I was sitting in the bus this afternoon...and I was actually fascinated....I mean maybe a year ago I was always one of those who was nice to everyone and all that stuff...but I also wanted to belong to those people who can be ass-holes, but who are probably "cool"...so now I am one of those...well feels good so far.....and this sounds bitchy or however we can call it...


damn it....fascination how people can influence you...

[bart]

You change everyday little by little....... everyone evolves ... its called getting older and wiser ..

[Bonus_mosher]

You've become what you always were.... HUMAN.

It's human instinct to want to better yourself no matter how perfect you are.

Which is why alot of rock stars turn from being the cool singer of an underground band, to being a jerk from a mainstream band.

Look at liam gallagher... well actually,
I bet he's always been a prick.
but you catch my drift.

If you can better yourself for personal or social gain...
who wouldn't take that oppourtunity!?

I know I would.

[bart]

You sound like a manc Age six racer ??

[Bonus_mosher]

Do you mean as in from manchester?

haha, not at all, I'm from near newcastle. up north. :)

With sven in your pic I assume your a city fan?

Well done killin utd this year both home and away, who'd have thought that would happen. lol

[bart]

No one... was very happy with that... !! :D Chuffed to bits... nice to meet ya. !!! I m from Manchester but live in spain

[Bonus_mosher]

wowww, I wish I lived in spain, lucky sod! :D

Nice to meet YOU Bart, I'm Jamie :)

[Gitta Rensolo]

forget this thread...I love thme, love them love them...:nice.

[LeftLeg]

you are all trouble makers

[Fixed]

I'm a million different people from one day to the next.

[The Mad Hatter]

^Love that song.


I know what you mean. I've been thinking the exact same thing recently (and was near to making a thread about it)...I just don't know what I am anymore. I love the fact that I feel more confident, and I can talk to people, do what I want to do, but so what? I can't erase the image of who I was from people's minds. People know me as who I was before and they'll never forget that, it's especially true when you live in a small town.

I don't know if I'm a good person anymore. I swear, I drink, I just don't know.

I don't know if I like what I've done. It's just so weird to be changing so quickly. It's like having a growth spurt and having to get used to longer limbs, getting coordinated again...

[Gitta Rensolo]

I'm a million different people from one day to the next.

Well, I declared this song to the song of my life...

and Emily...actually I'm gla dthat you say that because I was a bit afraid that you guys would just say "Damn it Julia, obviously you've become such an erm "unfair" person".....or something like that...ah unfair is not the best word here...

[LiquidSky]

I always kinda wanted to be one of those bitchy female but the reality is that I'm really not a bitchy female..what it really fascinated me was the power of it but once you have the power of it you, you don't really need the bitchy part.:laugh3:


Time is contagious... everybody's getting old :earmuffs:

[Ms Magpie]

Emily, I know what you mean with this part: I love the fact that I feel more confident, and I can talk to people, do what I want to do, but so what? I can't erase the image of who I was from people's minds.

So so real. But you know what? When you go to high school or uni, everything changes. New people who won't judge you by the image you gave 2 years ago let's say and they'll know just your present image.

And changing ... it means growing up if you ask me. Not necessarily becoming a better person, but a more skilled and wise one for sure.